At 13 I entered my first local snowboard contest, and won (OK sooooo… there were only 2 competitors in my division). In 2010, I began competing at events beyond the local level and took online courses while working full-time so that I could graduate high-school a semester early. Working 5am-12pm at a gas station making breakfast sandwiches and serving coffee, so I could afford to go to snowboard camp.
That Summer, my hard work payed off and when slopestyle snowboarding was announced as an Olympic event I was named to the Canadian Junior National Snowboard team. At that time I had no coach, no connections, and no idea of the journey this would set me on. There were amazing highs, competing on the World Cup circuit, travelling with the National team, but also, deep lows, such as failing to qualify for the 2014 Olympics, breaking my tailbone, ribs, ankle, wrist, concussions…
In 2015 I reached out to my coaches and told them I hadn’t been feeling quite myself that past season. I had seen several friends have life threatening injuries, and I had begun to wonder how it would effect my future, family, and other passions if something like that were to happen to me. More than fear and injuries of my own, I had begun to have anxiety attacks, and unknown to me at the time, had fallen into a depression.
When I decided to step away from the sport, my mental health took a deeper dive. I started having more severe panic attacks and struggled with the concept of losing my identity as a snowboard athlete pursuing her Olympic dream. Who am I now? That Summer opened my eyes to how dark things could get, even for a seemingly always motivated and optimistic young woman.
I am thankful for the mental health support I had during that time for saving my life and guiding me to where I am now. Aside from therapy and interventions, diving into CrossFit gave me an outlet and helped me through the transition. Eventually it became more than that, and I’ve now competed around the World at Sanctional events, competing against the fittest athletes on the planet.
In 2019 however, I was involved in a motorbike accident, and have been documenting my shoulder recovery and competition comeback online. Things are looking up!